Preserved through Grace

God has defianately saved my life.  some years ago I found the spiritual path and real teachers.  I was in a novice live in program living with a priest and a couple other students.  I was given so much blessing, teaching, and grace.  At a certain point I became scared, ran away, got myself into a relationship, wich was a mess just as i was warned and my higher knowing new. When the relationship ended, I started doing drugs, cocaine, other things, and was very close to death numerous times.  When I knew I would either become homeless or get my act together, I chose to come back to life.  I remember one night doing so much substances that I felt my heart could stop at any moment, and to be honest, part of me wanted it to.  This is a very scary and humbling memory for me.
  When I put the self destructive behind me and humbly came back to the spiritual path and to God, and to the teachers who are so patient and loving....now I see how blessed and graced I have been to One, be alive in this body, and Two, be accepted back into God's family though i knowingly rebelled and caused violence to myself and to others.  I believe if there was not a desire to know and serve God, I would not be here today, and it is through God's grace that I have been preserved.
                                Thomas.